“Where’s my World” ?

I woke up one day and, everyone that I knew and loved, was nowhere to be found !! Everyone around me seemed strange. I looked at myself in the mirror and the person that looked back at me, seemed unfamiliar.

I sat there wondering, what happened ? When did these changes take place and where had I been, while all of these changes took place ?

When last I remember, My Son Brandon was very much “Alive", the Love of life and best friend, was “Alive", mostly all of my longtime friends were “Alive", people were still caring and neighborly towards one another, and no one was wearing “A face mask” 😷 😯

I went outside and just sat and looked into the sky, looked out into the Sun, just being still and taking in all of the “Unfamiliar”. sounds, smells sights. It seemed as though I was in a foreign Country !!

I felt as though, I had laid down and slipped into a deep sleep, that lasted for “Year’s” so much had taken place, changed. And yet it seemed as though, the changes were made “Overnight”, in the Blink of an eye.

“Where had my world gone" and where was I when it was leaving me.?

It was then that I realized that, the world had not gone anywhere,” I had been standing still, frozen in Grief every since my Son “Brandon died" meanwhile the “World”, had continued on without me being emotionally present.

Babies were born, people died, we had been having a terrible “Pandemic”, people were dying by the “thousandths everyday".

People had to wear facemasks, Churches and schools and lots of other businesses and social gathering places had to “Close their doors". Meanwhile I was preoccupied with being devastated from losing my Son.

I realized that, Life had gone on without me being emotionally present,in it.

I also realized that, it was time I rejoined Life, while I was still “Alive", and that my Son would want me to, live life to the fullest until it’s time to make my “Transition”, too.

“Life is for the living” 🙏

To those of you who are grieving, grieve however please try not to become

“Frozen in your sorrow”

“Peace be with you" 😇